Bby Girl

As you probably already know, I got my wisdom teeth out about a week ago and truthfully, I didn’t mentally prepare for it. Sometimes so much goes on that I can only take life one day at a time and before I knew it, it was Wednesday night and I had to get up for surgery the next day. I did my best in ordering an icepack face wrap, applesauce, protein shakes, and extra gauze from Amazon. (Thank you Amazon for your super speed delivery processes). Wednesday night I went to the grocery after work and stocked up on soups, yogurt, and vegan ice cream. Like maxed out. It was kind of expensive won’t lie but I knew I would NOT want to cook while off the drugs, so I figured spending a little extra was fine. It definitely was worth it because I ended up being so sleepy and wanted to do literally nothing. Happy the soups were there to take care of me.

The whole not-being-able-to-workout thing hasn’t been my favorite (without it I don’t know how to behave/function properly) but I will say actually relaxing for 5 days was kind of the shit. I genuinely don’t think I’ve rested like that in over 4 years. I wish this weren’t true, I'm not priding myself on the fact that I can’t chill, but yeah due to the current state of my life it's how I gotta function. But I will say having absolutely nothing to do and having no responsibilities left me in heaven. And actually being restricted from working out (the only thing that will stop me from working out) was nice too, it gave my body a break. (Which it probably needs anyway, I just deny).

Honestly, being forced to sleep and watch movies for 5 days reminded me how to slow down a bit. I was like, "Oh yeah, I don’t have to live life doing something during every second of the day?" I feel like that’s a very American concept. I have yet to visit anywhere outside of the country (I know. Working on this.)(Manifesting. Universe let’s please find a way...) but I feel like growing up in this capitalistic society has trained me that you need to go-go-go. But what about just enjoying the slowness of the day?

I mean it’s really up to me to control this. For example, days when I work and workout in the morning and grab dinner with someone after work- those days are a lot. They take a lot out of me. While theres a lot of good in them, (exercising, making money, developing friendships) they do wipe me out. And most days feel like this. But today, I am writing this from a park after just reading a book. And sunbathing (I’m super pale rn). And taking a brief nap. Not too much social media, not too much texting. Just slow, simple things. I feel like I've been able to savor the day, which is nice. Most days I do things and I’m like okay we do this, then go here, and I can’t wait till that’s over so I can go here and do this and its like…

Why am I wishing all this time away? I mean, I know I can’t always be in control of how things operate in my life (sometimes you gotta do what you don’t wanna do), but the days when I am in control, it’s really nice.

Anyways, yeah, wisdom teeth. The surgery went fine and I was nervous beforehand due to the fact that needles and blood make me nervous. (The thought of getting an IV put in my arm makes me want to barf…) But I just closed my eyes and thought happy thoughts and then in a matter of like 2 seconds I was knocked out from the anesthesia. Woke back up with a nurse helping me into a wheel chair and four less teeth in my mouth. I cried in the car while still loopy off the drugs. Good times.

So yeah, I’m definitely a baby when it comes to doctors and medicine but it’s fine, I can’t be tough and chill in all areas of life. And I will say being a lazy baby watching movies all day and sleeping has it’s perks.

This post was really more of a rant than anything, but I hope you got something out of it. Maybe I made you feel better if you’re getting your wisdom teeth out because you realize you're tougher than me (lol). So thats good, I consider that a win and me “connecting with my readers”. Even if it is at my expense.